After 1 year 8 months, I'm finally able to work something I desire. I would say this long period of waiting has taught me many precious lessons. =) I remember how lost I was many months back, not knowing what I really want to do in the future, not knowing what I should be doing, not knowing what would next step I will be taking and not knowing how is it going to be possible for me to work in a childcare centre when I realised that's what I want to do in the future too. Many obstacles, like parental objections and results, came in my way as I was wanting to pursue what I desire to do.
I have to admit that during this long period of waiting and trying, I was discouraged many times and I hated my life at times too. Looking at my friends around me who are studying or working, I envied. For those who are studying, I envied because I want to study yet I can't do so now and I regretted not studying hard in the past. For those who are working, I envied because with my O level results, I can say it's near to zero chance of working in a childcare centre which is what I really want.
Looking back, there were indeed far too many regrets I have. Because of peers influence, bad companies, wrong choices made, unwillingness to study when opportunities knocked on my door, playfulness and etc. But no doubt, our God is a great God. He holds our future, our destiny. Having gone so far away from Him for about a year, I don't know what made me want to come back to Him in last October. I can only say it's all in God's timing. Even more trials and testings came in my way since then but I'm thankful for all those happenings because I realised I have drawn the closest to God in this difficult period especially these 3 weeks itself. I'm thankful to God for bringing Godly people, like Kong, Catherine, Ian, Lilis, Ruth, Jessie, Malcolm, Hup Guan and etc, into my life, helping and guiding me along too.
With God, all things are possible! After praying for directions in life for so many months, God has finally answered them! =) Well, I won't say I have completely knew what God has for me in life neither do I know how e new environment will be like but I'm trusting God in every step I take. Now, I'm ready to go on a totally different journey with God to continue shining for Him! =)
For those who are still praying and waiting for God to answer your prayer(s), just want to encourage you to press on in prayers till God answers them for He'll definitely answer our prayers in His perfect timing! =)
With His Love,
Amelia
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